Musings: March 2005

Mah birfday

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

My birthday approaches
march 31st for all those curious
no idea what to do if anything
im not notorious for doing anything partially because (im sure i mentioned this before but i dont feel like looking hrough my archives for at least another 5 years) after my chuck e cheeze b-day party it all seemed pointless heh
oh i already got some presents from friends so i will give out credit now
julia thank you for the book. incase anyone was interested it is called "incompetence" (yah totally screams of me hey) written by the same guy that wrote red dwarf Rob Grant
and i just noticed that you rote a note on the inside cover oh i will be laughing i have bin since a saw teh title and the various versions of it in the book haha
and scott thanks for the offer to lend me babylon 5 and to all those who dont know what it is umm.. its a bunny and to all of those who do know what it is and and to cal me a nerdy geek i say to you "its a bunny" heh

oh i think my beta is going to die he has dropsy and all the other betas that one of my bettas have ever got that have died from it so im kinda fearful
anyways im going to sleep now
later days (heh bonus points to whoever can place that reference)

Posted By Gadget At 12:41 AM | Gadget 5 comments

Its My Sanity And i can cry if i want to

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Tada Found a Mental disorder test on someones (Julia's) site an just "Had" to take it

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	Very High
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Very High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

Isnt It Just Peachy!

Posted By Gadget At 12:09 AM | Gadget 7 comments

Crippling Anti-depression

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Songs are fun
listning to a song called Alone by All Trashed Down
good times
[EDIT] Oh and i forgot to mention Thief by Our Lady Peace among other OLP songs Basicaly i stil think the OLP = Good listning I stilll remember allmost all of the lyrics to every song. Ahh reminicing to grade 12 arts night for all those present at the time i would truthfully like to know if i sucked or if i was actually something other than craptacular so either self validation or crippling embarasment to come [/EDIT]
[EDIT^2] Again i want to add in the OLP sonfg called Stealing Babies[/EDIT^2]

hate reading other peoples blogs
they have thoughts and ideas which seem much better then anything i have ever bothered to write down
also some of the many blogs i read regularly (all the ones on the list to the left)have good ideas or actual non hollow superficial content or ways to write things i like but i cant use because someone else came up with the idea before me and if i write something down that has already bin done even if i mean it, i feel like a cheap dirty plagarist.

Also the disapointments of meeting people. It sucks if you meet someone that you really want to get to know better (no not necisarily in the "gawd he/she/it is so hot. i would sure like ta get all up into some of dat stuff") but dont seem to get the opportunity to and then just feel like what the hell is the point of meeting people if you just talk to them two or three times. It is just seeming somewhat pointless. And frustrating. mostly frustrating. oh well i know i shouldnt worry about things that i have no controll over but still

anyways an update on my pet situation. i now have the three female guppys and the one male guppy. all three females are the preggers now.

Just watched Steve Jacksons Dead Alive today
one of the more humerous spoof esk zombie movies i say. The best line in the entire movie took place in a graveyard. The priest that lived on the grounds was woken by the skuffeling of the main character trying to sedate some zombies with some horse tranquilizers. The prest sees the zombies swarming the main character and jumps down from on top of a crypt infront of a zombie and says "I Kisk Ass For The Lord" before he bulls out a can of undead kung-foo style kick ass on the zombies. And he was all silver haired and somewhat old looking but they used higher framerates to make it look like he was lightining fast. It was situational comedic gold(at least i think it was situational comedy anyways)

Also before i go to sleep
A new EB Games has opened up near my house. That brings nearly all of my favorite stores within 5 min from my house. bestbuy Walmart and EB right down the road. Hopefully they will open a pet store there.

As is my habit i close with the phrase
In Summation I need a Hug

Posted By Gadget At 11:22 PM | Gadget 6 comments

Because I Can

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

I once again feel the need to post one of my favorite quotes for no reason other then im bored and it is meaningfull (you just need to really want to see the meaning)

"There are things you lose you can never get back
You can never have them again except in the smudging carbon copy of memory
There are things that seem irreconcilable
That you must find a way to reconcile with
The simple passage of days
Tells the sharpness of the pain but never quite wares it out
And what doesn't wash away with time becomes a cold hard nub of something
An un-losable souvenir"

Oh yes My new guppy is either pregnant or gotten really fat really fast. Now maybe im just crazy (who am i kidding "maybe" Ha) but i swear she looks much bigger in the belly area
im guessing she is the first one considering how she and my other guppy have been going at it. Like bunnys i say
bah i should have baby guppies in about 3 to 5 weeks

that is all
Peace out yo
[edit] Just realised i posted that quote before but you know what.. i still like it![/edit]

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They Don't Blink

Sunday, March 13, 2005

Feeling Utterly uninspired
posting out of guilt for not posting anything in a while
should be my normal perky self agian by next week

Posted By Gadget At 9:00 PM | Gadget 1 comments

A Monument to Wasted Time

Friday, March 04, 2005

As i near my 21st birthday i am forced to remember when i was 9 years old. I remember back then planing out the rest of my life.I actually had a plan. i had set many goals and i had a time frame in which to accomlish them. now that im nearing 21 I realise that i havent really accomplished any of the thigns that i was suppose to. Granted some of the minor stuff i have done but nothing of the really important stuff. Nearly nothing of what was supose to have happened by now has happened and its starting co tick me off. Thus this birthday will feel like a monument to 21 good years of wasted time. Well it was all down hill after my ninth birthday party anyways (nothing can compete with a Chuck E. Cheeze Birthday party with your entire grade minus a fiew (small school) and various other friends attending)

In other news
didnt attend the muzak of interphase tonight
not that i didnt want to go but i tend to get all unfomfortable in the big crowds especially if i dont know if there arent going to be any people that i know well or i consider particularly interesting in the croud. and all i would actually go there for would be to hear interphase play who would probably play for only 20 min max and it would take almost 2 hours for me to get there. Notice how im trying to justify not going both to whoever is reading and to myself Zaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I think i need a nap. Oh yah i found out yesterday that when you inhale melted chocolait it will litterally burns for hours and oh you would think that drinking water helps but nooo it doesnt it just mocks you as it dangles its false hope right in front of you and you may think i sound bitter but ohhh noooo not bitter just sarcastic zaaa. Couldnt breath quite right till a while after i got home heh This is a warning to children Dont be a retard, chew then swallow your food in discrete proportions oh and breathing and swallowing at the same time should only be attempted by profesionals you know... hookers (aka those of the sex worker persuasion) and gay men (aka those of the monkey love persuasion) heh my blog just became PG13 Mature subject mater and adult themes. Now all i need is the corse language oooooo BARBRA STRISAND! heh south park Yay now its NC17 and now before my commentary totally degrades into the nonsensical and mildly reminicent of scary guy who talks to himself about how the beams are controlling his thoughts and argues with his left foot over the bennifits of a tinfoil hat over those of a newspaper hat insane ramblings i think i will cut it off. Drat and i started off so coherent too Oh well
now for the sleep g'night y'all

[addendum] hey the tmj episode of the Oblongs is on tv now it is the Funney [/addendum]